Me in London Now

Just stumbled upon this blog again, after years..

Reading it, especially the draft folder just bring so much nostalgia

So I decided to just write again, now that I have time... 

Not for anyone, just for my self. I won't check my grammar nor ask chatgpt to correct me, I'll just write whatever I want, I guess. Since no expectation, and no one will really read but myself.

Let me talk about update, who am I now? Even I always question this everyday tho...

Do I really now who I really am, what's my purpose.

I live in London now, wow, never expected this. I mean, I've always imagined my self living abroad, but London, I don't think so. The US maybe sounds more like me, or even Paris. I moved to London in September 2024, to continue my master in King's College London. A school that I was only aware of the year before LOL. So it was not really part of my dream either I would say, but I'm still grateful. I left my job after 8 years of career. Great Career. I finally took a rest. I started to work literally after graduation not even a day gap. And I graduated in 3.5 year, so my last semester was HECTIC. I was ambitious, even now.

My master... I'd say the knowledge was not really important (?) I mean, I feel like everything they thought I already knew since I worked in business field for 7+ years already and I took entrepreneurship major. But the experience of master were fun. Very different education culture compared to Indonesia. I struggled a bit in the beginning of course. People are pushed to be critical here, to speak up their mind, to challenge ideas, while in Indonesia is more like a memory challenge. I like it, but I just need a bit of time to adjust. But the highlight of it is of course is the opportunity to meet people from different cultures, and this is always something that I like and admire. I really love to see diversities and how different backgrounds shapes someone personality and thinking. 

I am know working in a startup, when I say startup, it is really just started. I'm basically the first hire, the only full-time employee works there right now. Which have never crossed my mind before to be in this type of career. I always think that I'm a big corporate girlie, I love being part of big names, but then my experience working in Aeris really changed me. I fall in love with entrepreneurship, and to have different things to do everyday. I've always have a strong ownership in what I do as well, so I think I'm quite likeable to any of employer so far. I've always been a favorite to my previous bosses because I'm THAT dedicated. Especially now with a startup, I think you kinda need that spirit from your employee. I don't know maybe I'm just rambling around and put myself in a high position LOL, but that's what I think and that makes me feel good about my career, LOL. Especially that I got this job after months of searching. I mean in London it's very hard to get a job for everyone, but i think it was harder for others than me. I'm quite blessed that I got this job and turn out to be really enjoy it, so yeah i'm super grateful.

I hope that later I can be an entrepreneur myself. I think I can already start something, but somehow I don't? I did not grew up in an entrepreneurship culture, both of my parents are state employees. I used to sell stuffs since high school, but the money is for extracurricular not for myself so it's different still. I always lost of courage. Everytime I have an idea, I always ended up questioning it and feel doubtful. Especially if I need to invest my money on it, I always feel hesitant. Although I know I should only just start. But yeah, I need to beat my self in this matter maybe. I need to quit being coward.